Tuesday, April 28, 2009

The Business of Being born

Watched the documentary "The Business of Being Born" last Friday. It was pretty good. Can't say I totally agree with it, and it's pretty one sided- but its from the side women don't hear much from- and for that I think its important. Some of the points are pretty old- it talked a lot about elected C-sections and the risks they bring, and inductions in general. It certainly still is a problem- because I know there are many places where that is the case- but the documentary almost made it seem as if all doctors and hospitals ritually use PIT and prefer inductions and C-sections. I know that the two doctors I delivered with would not. It also really pushed the idea of running away from hospitals altogether and that one's only hope to deliver the way they hope to is to deliver at home. After watching it I felt the opposite. I certainly agreed that women today are taught to be fearful of the labor and delivery and are convinced tha "doctors know best" and just go with the "norm". I know especially with Josh I was that way. At the same time I'm very thankful for the modern medicines and facilities of a hospital. I just think that doctors and hospitals need to be more informed and accepting of natural birth and midwives- and trust women more in making wise choices. To work together... I want to deliver "naturally"- but have all the comforts and clean up of a hospital staff, and the back up if something goes wrong.

Thursday, April 23, 2009


People always talk about the pregnancy "glow". Yeah. I don't think I'm really blessed with the "glow" gene. I certainly never felt like my skin, hair or nails got better when I was pregnant with Josh or Dekker. BUT I have noticed stronger, longer nails with this one- so I guess that's something to be thankful for.

I went for my first midwife appointment today. It wasn't too eventful really. Just the normal pee in a cup, blood draw, and getting my previous pregnancies info. Everyone was really friendly and helpful. I met one of the three midwifes there (I met another one when I went in for my yearly exam- so I only have one more to meet.)

Tuesday, April 21, 2009


And so it starts. The hormones must be in full force because this last week has been an emotional one. The other night Jake and I were going over our budget, and Jake asked me, "Do you realize you just went from laughing hysterically to crying in a matter of minutes?!" He really wasn't sure what to do.(Don't worry. I don't even remember why I was crying- but it wasn't really due to our budget. Our finance situation is fine!) Luckily I realized how crazy it was too- but I simply couldn't control myself. And I think it was Sunday that I broke into tears because I was "tired of feeling sick and fat".... Here it starts, and so it goes...

Tuesday, April 14, 2009

Ew! That smell!

My nose has been SO sensitive this week! I smell all kinds of yucky smells and they always seem incredibly strong and make me sick- while others can't even smell them, or barely smell them.

Thursday, April 9, 2009

6 week mark

Today I went to the gym and rode the elliptical for just under an hour. My body feels so different already. Maybe I didn't pay as much attention before, or maybe my now 30 year old body just feels it all the more. You're worth it though- we are so excited for you!

I scheduled my first midwife appointment today. It will be April 23rd. You will be my first baby seeing a midwife instead of an OBGYN. I debated if I should go with Mt. Timpanogos Women's Midwife group- who delivers at American Fork Hospital, or with the New Beginnings Nurse Midwife group who will deliver at the smaller Orem hospital. I decided to go with the New Beginnings group because the rooms are bigger at that hospital and Vicky Gonzales, a woman from my ward who is a delivery nurse there, highly recommended them and the hospital. She's a smart, sweet lady- who loves her job and has been doing it for years- so her opinion had a big impact on my decision.

Still feel sick off and on- more so at nights. It does seem better this week than last though! I've been craving eggs and mexican food (beans and rice?) so I guess I need more protein.

The last couple of days Josh has started saying, "We don't have a girl baby yet. Maybe this one will be a girl baby!" So I guess we're all hoping for a girl now- but we'll love you if you're a boy just the same!

Wednesday, April 1, 2009

To my Newest One,

I dedicate this blog to you!

I found out just a short week ago today that you were on your way! Your father and I had made the decision to have another baby, and so were hoping to get pregnant during March 2009. I started to suspect I was pregnant when I noticed my breasts were more tender and had a couple quick-passing feelings of nausea. Your dad kept asking me if I was pregnant yet, and when I told him I suspected so he began begging me to take a test. On the night of the 24th I promised him I would take one the next morning (so it would be more accurate) even though it would still be a day or two early. That morning I woke up about 5am with a need to pee, remembering my promise I went ahead and grabbed the pregnancy test. Not wanting to fully wake up though, I didn't turn on any lights. I peed on the little stick and tried to read an answer. In the dim light though I couldn't really see it, and I didn't want to wait too long before returning to bed- so I set it on the bathroom counter and went back to bed, thinking that maybe there was a positive sign- but if it was it had been faint.

A couple hours later Jake woke up and was getting ready to get in the shower when HE remembered our pact- he popped his head out the bathroom door and said, "Swettie, remember to come take the test!" When I responded "I already have..." he yelled, "what!?" I explained and told him where to find it. He immediately found it and yelled, "You're pregnant!" to which I responded "Oh good! I couldn't tell when I read it last night." He was a little dumbfounded that I was more energetic- but mother's intuition had already told me I was- and so the test was just confirming it.

From that day forward I began noticing more frequent feelings of "morning sickness". I was a bit surprised, because I had had none with Josh, and though I had some with Dekker it wasn't till I was more like 6 weeks. They've increased in strength- thous I have yet to actually throw up, I have actually ran to the toilet thinking I would twice already- where I only did that once with Dekker. The other unique thing thus far is that I seem to feel worst at night, and after SWEETS! I console myself that it will help me keep from gaining too much weight. Speaking of weight... I've gained about 3 pounds already! It could just be because the second and 3rd weeks in March we were traveling (to St. George and Colorado) and so I didn't eat as well- but since being back I've actually been more cautious about what I ate and how much I exercised because I'm already at a higher weight than I wanted to be going in to all of this... It does have me a bit superstitious that maybe Jake's wish for twin girls has turned into reality. I did tell Jake last night (after really bad nausia) that this pregnancy has already felt so different that it has to be either a girl, or twins- to which he responded, "or both!!!". Of course, many women say that their pregnancies get harder with each child, or that pregnancies in your 30s are more difficult... so we'll see.

"We'll see." That reminds me about Josh. Josh is so excited for you. We talked to him about the possibility of having another baby before we started trying, to which he responded with much enthusiasm. Now that he knows "there's a baby in Moma's belly" he is constantly telling me, "I'm excited for a new baby in our family" and "I love the new baby in your belly" and is lately has started patting and rubbing "the baby". When anyone asks him if he wants a brother or sister, or what we should name the baby he simply answers, "We will see!" I love that he is old enough to be excited about it all.

Jake is also VERY excited. I'm so happy, because he was more hesitant than I to have baby number three- but he is so excited. I wanted to keep it "on the down low" for a while- but he started telling everyone- so I relented as well. He is really wanting a girl, or twin girls, as already mentioned- but will of course be happy with a boy as well.

I'm hoping for a girl too- but I've been thinking that if its a boy then it will be that much easier to petition with a fourth baby later. At first I didn't have any mother's intuition feelings one way or the other, but the last couple days have begun to feel it will be a girl. We'll see if I continue to feel that way.

Well, my little one. That is it for now. I hope I can continue to record details of the pregnancy for you and I to look back on one day together!